Taking breaths to stay

TGIHG. Thank god I have gian. HAHAHAH.-I waz late for school today. Did longjump for PE. Saw the power of some guyz, so baik. Literature was disgusting. Rahimi and co. were talking about horny stuffs and I was just minding my own business, then they come disiaosiao me and said I was actually listening to what they were saying and I must be feeling happy inside... Haha srsly like talk cork only!!! After PT I sent gian to bus-stop, then over to lester's. Came back early b'cus mami injured her leg and I was worrieeeeddd. Hai, there's no end to worrying for this woman :( I don't know why am I updating this blog on a Monday. Anyway..... can't wait to sing random songs with deying tomorrow again~ We do it everyday and it makes me so hyped up. Hehe..
Memories is the main culprit of all, baby.

This is the last time

Yesterday was dunearn's annual x-country, but gave it a miss and hit town instead. Got home at around 7 as the girls were tired.. Well I came home to study but got a call from Lester so went to meet him instead. Came home at 12plus and slept straight. My eyes were so sleepy from all the crying. I thought you're supposed to be overjoyed when you've given up after a long fight.. Yet I feel no happy cells attacking me at the moment. Just feel like sitting here, staring into empty space, hoping something would save me, waiting for time to pass by, doing absolutely nothing. Yep, just like that.. -
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P.S. Met nab and junqian just nao. Fwens for fuck siaK! (Junqian.... zzzz) Had a good talk with them + kfc eggtarts.. Straight after dinner somemore. Damn sinful :( Dunearn is a scandalous skool haha. Btw I added a new tagboard!! Yay.

Straight through your heart

Suffered a long day in school today. Lessons are such a headache, seriously. Anyway had a good talk with val, cheerup little girl everything's gonna be fine for you! ;) Other than that, I just got home & pompom-ed. Heheeee, gonna eat tidbits and watch videos for tonight. NOT GOING TO STUDY. Hahaha, gian ah gian where're you~

Thank god it's friday

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Weekends are finally here. Relieved. Kept everything to myself for the entire week. Lived in a bottle. Switched lifestyles. Got the taste of being, well, lonely. Got to school feeling hopeless. School made me feel like total shit. Band is driving me off centre. Still.... I survived. Haha my determination must be stronger than I thought ;) Loads of studying to be done. G'night everybody. Sleep tight hope you dream happy dreams. Xoxo.
The same storyline. The same plot. Different casts. Same ending?

Restart this heart of mine

-I remember when I first met you in sec one. I was so afraid of you cos you looked like an ahlian. Progressing to how we always schemed to skip cca together in the past. Two years ago, at the school's funfair, you made this badge for me. It wrote, " Joey! You're the best.... Friends 4ever". Last year, when mdm leow confiscated my phone, you wrote "Cheerup. We'll get it back for you :)" on tissuepaper for me. I even found this note saying, "I know your dirty little secret. Pay me $5000 or the whole world will know about it". You're the sunshine in my life. You start laughing and all my problems seem to be so much smaller. I never expected anyone to understand. Because I never got to telling anyone how much I treasured you, treasured our friendship. I'm sorry I lost track of my life to figure out what exactly went wrong.
I'm just sorry that after so long, I still can't find courage to tell you I'm sorry.